Lauren, I've been getting to know you from afar since September and let me tell you this. I have NEVER thought of you as a "mopey depressed (and depressing) girl". I've always seen you as a super positive force, someone who smiles a lot, cracks a lot of excellent jokes and spreads an immense amount of warmth and joy and expansiveness around the writing community. Does it help that you are seen that way by others? Fuck that mopey depressed (and depressing) girl of the past. I don't think that is you any more xx
Sometimes I feel guilty that I’m busting old myths that I was bred to believe —about life, about work, about myself. For instance, my Italian catholic upbringing taught me to value family and work above all. I was taught life IS hard (it just IS - if it isn’t, I must be doing it wrong.)
Letting go of that, and letting myself be content rather than hustling all the time, is surprisingly difficult. It is also a rejection of “family values”, which makes me feel even further away from my family.
I don’t know whether this resonates in any way with your guilt.
Lauren, I've been getting to know you from afar since September and let me tell you this. I have NEVER thought of you as a "mopey depressed (and depressing) girl". I've always seen you as a super positive force, someone who smiles a lot, cracks a lot of excellent jokes and spreads an immense amount of warmth and joy and expansiveness around the writing community. Does it help that you are seen that way by others? Fuck that mopey depressed (and depressing) girl of the past. I don't think that is you any more xx
Sometimes I feel guilty that I’m busting old myths that I was bred to believe —about life, about work, about myself. For instance, my Italian catholic upbringing taught me to value family and work above all. I was taught life IS hard (it just IS - if it isn’t, I must be doing it wrong.)
Letting go of that, and letting myself be content rather than hustling all the time, is surprisingly difficult. It is also a rejection of “family values”, which makes me feel even further away from my family.
I don’t know whether this resonates in any way with your guilt.